When One Eight Becomes Two Zeros

And here it is folks, as promised heres a proper post. Don't blink.

So where do I begin...?
Well 2008 ain't off to the best of starts. Most of the bad shit has happened in the last 1-2 weeks, which I can honestly say have been the worst of my life so far, I believe.
They have reshaped absolutley everything in my life and turned so much upside down...

I'm gonna try and skim round quiet alot of the details because its not pleaseant going over everything again, and I have shed too many tears as it is, which can't be good. But basically I am absoloutly heartbroken and feel very disheartened with everything because for the last 2 years my life has been on the up for sure. I feel very upset and sick constantly and just all round terrible. Every song feels like it is directly talking to me - why is that?!!! Don't even get me started on my iPod - everysong is a constant reminder of how good my life used to be. my room is a cell of memorabilia of a better life. Boo.

I'm not really feeling the whole Spiderman comics just now, but I am aware that there was a story arc called "One More Day" or something - and I kinda feel as if i'm in a similiar situation of just thinking if I had one more day to put everything to right. Maybe I overthought that one, but I know people will agree with me on that one.

Unfortunately this downer isn't gonna cease. I've lost my best friend. One day you might get some witty posts from me that require you to hunt me down on myspace and congratulate me on my humour, but for the time being I am literally in continual mourning.

I think whatever happens I will forever be tortured by the idea and notion of "what if" - and thats something I guess I am going to have to live with.

I'm not gonna lie - this probably won;t be the last time you hear about this....
Love hurts.